I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

Psalm 139:13-14 (NKJV)

¹³ For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.

I was fearfully and wonderfully made … I have to sit with that and let that thought roll around in my mind for a bit.  I am thirty-one years old, and I am just now coming to realize that I am okay as I was made.  I am silly, and my mind makes the strangest connections, but that is EXACTLY the way God intended it.  My husband (Casey) and I joke about “keeping the crazy” contained.  He loves me in all of my craziness.  However, I quite often keep it in a tight box, shoved deep somewhere where it isn’t allowed to come out.  Occasionally it will leak out, and I will come home and tell Casey, “Some of my crazy slipped out today.”  He just smiles and asks what happened.  Usually it isn’t anything too big of a deal, but I’ll be ashamed.  What am I scared of?  Honestly, I think I was and still am a little scared that people aren’t going to like the real me, so I don’t let them see who that is.  It is easier to be rejected when you aren’t being honest about who you are. 

This weekend my eyes were opened to everything that I have been shutting myself away from.  I heard Mrs. Jojo Moffitt speak at a ladies conference at Hopewell Baptist Church in Napa, California.  Her messages were amazing.  However, it wasn’t her message that God used to reach my heart it was her personality.  She was herself, confident, funny, silly, and sweet.  She was unabashedly herself.  I could not help but fall in love with her.  Her stories were hilarious.  However, most importantly, she lives her life fully.  By doing so, she becomes such an amazing testimony for God.  I want to be an amazing testimony for God.  I want to stop containing the crazy.  Because I was fearfully and wonderfully made, I want to live my life wonderfully, and I want to live it without fear!